Lonely ...

It was a heart-wrenching moment to send Dear off last nite! I was on MC yday coz I guess I contracted fever from Dear. Guess coz we've been hugging each other & close to one another even though Dear was unwell. I din mind it @ all coz I juz dun wish to let him go! So Dear accompanied me to the doc & after getting my MC, we made our way home to do some more last-minute packing. Dear was still unwell then & he's quite worried that he might not be able to enter the customs gantry @ Oz. When it was time to get ready, my body felt so heavy as though I weighed 200 pounds! I was hoping that time could slow down so I could spend more time with him. Juz before stepping out of the house, Dear pulled me closer & gave me a hug. It was then that I cant hold back my tears! But I tried to put on a brave front coz I din wanna Dear to worry abt me.

We reached the airport early & decided to grab a bite. He had to fall-in by 9pm to collect his boarding pass. There were so many other units who were flying off to Oz...and I tot it was oni the Commando Unit. After collecting his boarding pass, they were allowed to roam or wander abt 1st before checking in. And Dear wanna have another drink with me...this time, he asked his mates to join us oso. Met up wit a few of his mates & gotta noe them. Guess Dear will be in their safe hands...@ least there are frens who can take care of each other there.

I would say that the 1hr before & after Dear's check-in were the most difficult to cope with! I juz felt like pulling him back & not letting him go! After he checked in, I juz cant hold back my tears anymore. With tears flowing down my cheeks & red eyes, I walked back to the MRT stn alone. I never thought that it would be this hard! 3½ weeks may be short to some but it's the longest period that Dear & I have ever been apart. It was a 6hrs flight & Dear's 1st msg reached me this morning @ 6.26am to inform me that he has touched down. I was so exhilarated to receive his msg this morn. And another msg reached me @ 10.30am to inform me that he has reached his base camp. Where Dear is now, he's 2 hrs ahead of Spore.

My most satisfying moment was when Dear called me @ 6.52pm to check on how I was doing. I thought he wuold call me after my TKD training but he said that he has to bunk in early coz they have an early morning tml. So when he called me @ that time, it was oredi abt 9pm in Oz. No wonder he had to bunk in oredi. Although we spoke for oni 5mins 2secs, I was satisfied & relieved to hear his voice. It was like a dose of refresher for me! I'll try & blog everyday so that wen Dear returns in 21 days' time, he can read this like a diary. It'll be dedicated to him. I love & Dear & missing U so much.